I am still alive.
I think I won't be able to give much comments for a while (yes longer).
I can try though.
i'm recatching up, due to life, so I'm going through the alphabet once more.
I think it might be my video card, perhaps.
Stupid computer... yes I have my CP back ._. long story-- next journal.
Basically this video card doesn't like me, nor does this CP... and when I try to look through DA my computer suddenly laggs up a lot-- and usually only with DA does it do it too-- so it's really hard to do anything.
So the "best" I can do for now- is look/fav or what not, b/c it seems to lock up when i comment, after I comment-- when I'm looking...etc.
Please forgive me.
Take care.

and yes
my clubs list needs to be updated:

[link]

OMYWORD I CAUGHT UP!!
I just hafta go through every one's journals that the've posted (over 200 here) and all the clubs... and what not... I have a couple entries to do
And urm... yeah anything that was uploaded from anyone's name that's from the beginning of the alphabet to the letter "s" who's uploaded anything in the past 2 or 3 days-- I'll go back through but *gasp* caught up!
and I'm pretty much caught up on lj too

unfortunately, it seems as good things start to happen, they're followed by depression for me or sadness from friends.
I'm noticing more people I know getting " down" or feeling really upset.
Or things happening to them that just... well shouldn't be. They don't deserve it. And like every time, when it starts out as one person; it ends up being more people... and I feel so helpless-- like I can't do anything for anyone.
Someone I don't know on [link]... someone who's been there for a while made a thread stating she was leaving gaia... and then 2 days later posted why.
She has brain cancer and is going in for surgery and what not... today.
The doctors give her "2 months." She just turned 22.
Then upon hearing this-- I noticed/remembered a friend of mine from gaia-- her mother passed away a year ago... of brain cancer.
Something that shouldn't exist, yet it does. And it eats away and seems to always kill those who DESERVE to LIVE not die... not be sick.
Of course I don't believe the dr's too often-- too often have they been proven wrong-- so I'm more in hope that she comes out of it healthy and a quick recovery-- to return to Gaia... and to her life... and to her friends.

Then there's people here-- as I finally catch up on galleries I notice a lot going through problems. With school, with friends, with family-- with life. And regardless of how well I know you, i feel terrible. That I can't help. That... I donno HOW to help. That' I'm not THERE to help.

***
Another quick update.
I was supposed to get my computer back today.
He hasn't shown up yet.
I hope he does... *sigh* with MY luck he won't... but oh well that's life, no?
Um.
Yeah I've still got holiday art...
I suck.
That is all
*smiles briefly*

Bye:


Clubs/friends: [link]

*edit* not sure if you can see this page: [link]
anywho
I'm on the letter "E" (or just starting" so... yay. go me
that is all



-can't type long- ...
will explain later
I've been catching up on other things, hafta re catch up on DA-- it'll be a lot tomorrow-this weekend, so expect comments or at least a lot of views.
I'm almost done with holiday art-- got crammed so haven't finished.. if u haven't gotten one yet-- lemme know what ya want, I might not have had an idea and may have done something "stupid" and ya might have a chance to save yourself
naw seriously.
I'ma do some catching up asap.
Take care
My apologies every one (again)



My clubs/friends/peeps: [link]

I'll delete the wallpapers from my gallery-- until further notice.

I'm sure everyone has heard about this by now, with the "lovely" note... *end sarcasm*
and I quote


Anime - wallpapers in this section are consistent in their depictions of anime-style art ranging from all types (i.e. manga, anthro, etc.). You must *NOT* use screenshots, sprites, material(s) found on anime & related websites, or from publications, etc. Everything must be original works by you and/or have obtained the necessary permissions from the owners to be used in your derivative and transformative works. Unless otherwise specified to be allowed for public use in the original website's "Terms of Use" (or the like) for the images you've used in your wallpaper deviation, you must not submit your game wallpaper if it contains material that does not belong to you. *** An update on this issue can be found in THIS ARTICLE.

Ok so why don't they just TAKE DOWN the anime and movie and game wallpaper section? They're saying that if any of the images you did not DRAW yourself (basically) cannot be used on a wallpaper... ok... so for those of us who cannot draw that well-- urm... say *bye bye* to wallpapers. This means I have to delete all my wallpapers... all the one's that I made are using images... and it's not always EASY to make those-- ask anyone. -_-
I figured they'd do this -_-' and they say that "non payers" don't have a right to complain? Well the payers could complain too-- but I'm sure if they did they'd be told they have no right either.
I'm sorry, but they say Deviantart is like... y'know... supposed to be art-- and when you put limitations on art, that doesn't make it any type of art. Basically they should just take down those sections for crying out loud. Eh ah well... that's what sites are for-- I'll just make my site and put my wallpapers on there -shrugs- And not just mine though, but I'll ask others if they want them up there too (once I ever get my site working)... I mean... I know it might just be a "little" thing... but .... I donno... -_-' *sighs* ah well... I've still got things to do.

Ja for now


*edit* or rather.... I see...... I guess if the MAIN site says it's ok?? I donno--- -_-'' What the... *arg* I'm confused again... in one part it says ONLY original* then it says... "Unless otherwise specified to be allowed for public use in the original website's " Terms of Use" (or the like) for the images you've used in your wallpaper deviation"... so... if it's an OFFICIAL website that says it's ok-- is that it? If that's the case then that'll still limit it being that repeatative images will be used... ??? There goes all the " contests" for wallpapers and such from clubs

Explain -_-


*ack* edited again.... for someone posted ".. now if only we could add something to stop people from posting scans of their freaking pokemon cards.. or yugioh... thats just as much copyright-infringment-ness-ess...."

Ok (a) ... using official images-- if a site was making a profite from using official images, would not that particular place go and sue them? Out of curiousity? I mean these particular people are usually sue-happy to begin with? All the "fan sites" should be deleted then? Which is most sites-- all "fan sites" with official images that they themselves sometimes have "capped"? And if someone posts actual "cards" as " indy art" or something-- I would understand it... but if someone is drawing the art then what's the problem? huh? I don't get what people's problem is some times -_-' It's like... arg. Ok... now for people who are drawing exact pictures of screencaps or something I would understand it ... I guess.... ACK my dad was in here talking to me >.< and i completely "lost my train of thought." -_-' But anyways... what the... *grumbles* it's called fanart... *sighs* I donno... I had a good " argument" but since my dad interrupted me.... *grumbles* -_-' Now this'll bug me until I get the right wording... and my day's already screwed up. Thanks.

*edit one last time* sorry -_-'
[link]
there's the article on the specifics of anime art... anime wallpapers... I can kinda see where they're coming from, but in the same sense it still ticks me slightly off *sighs* but they did point out a site that does allow it, so that was smart-- good of them. And then someone mentioned "And thus the banning of Anime and Anthro art continues to go. Nice being indescrete" or desc... sorry can't spell-- you know what they/I mean -_-
And they responded with something that kinda makes sense... that it might kinda *help* the anime/anthro art-- b/c now that they're (DeviantART) is plaining and bluntly saying that official images cannot be used for wallpapers... it'll let people know that the anime community isn't -just- a bunch of people slapping already used images on their work and calling it " theirs" or something...
And they said if -you- draw the image then it's ok... but for now don't put it in wallpaper. Like if I took my wallpapers and drew them exactly how they are, but drew them myself-- that would be ok. But since I took images from the official show/anime/movie-- it's not ok.
Ok that's all.

my friends and clubs: [link]

*edit* started commenting here... in order of my friends/clubs list ([link]) ... I'm on ... so if I already passed you up according to that list and didn't comment-- I DID look at your art, honest. I'm not wanting to sound overly repeatative But I'm really liking what everyone's done so far!! Wow. It appears a lot of the people I'm watching are also coming up with the style of their own they're finally happy with
But it's 4:18am, which means bedtime. Night

*edit* what I'm going to do... since DA is going to be deleting inbox-- I won't look (or at least comment) on anyone's gallery till Tuesday... that way I know what I commented on or get replies and all... I'll take care of comments/notes/journals now... and try to check out galleries, maybe a comment here or there, but I'll do my major catching up starting Tuesday or monday night. (Whenever every thing is deleted). ****still working on gift art, major backlagged***

well b/c of DA about to delete every thing in a couple days... I'm trying to pace myself so I'm not "too" overwhelmed... again throughout the next couple days you'll be getting comments from me as I go through your individual galleries-- starting first with my friends/people who watch me... etc... (according to the icon list I have in my sig -- well ... in the link in my sig) Then I'll work on every one else... k?
And... urm... *thinks* HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
there was something else.
I forgot.
I'll mention later.

Ja.

My clubs and friends and ... everyone: [link]